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Rich Brown - Living My Life Out Loud!
Hello I'm Rich Brown and this is my personal website and blog. I'm just your simple, average, down to earth, professional, out gay man and aspiring circuit boy, living in Phoenix, Arizona with a few things to say while trying to find my place among all the scary, conservative, religious nuts in this sick and twisted world.
Monday, April 02, 2001
@ Work
I'm working late to finish up some things. I wanted to write an entry and get slightly caught up with my journal.
Ugh ... What a headache today. I guess I shouldn't have drank so much or stayed out so late last night. Anyway -- it was a totally fun evening. I ended up going to the Beer Bust at Lone Star with Steven and his friends. I was slightly scared at first going in there since this was my first time at a "bear" bar. You know it was so much fun. All of the people there were really nice and just plain funny. I don't think I've laughed so much in a long time. I ended up drinking too much beer.
Steven and I went to the Cafe and danced for a little bit before decided to go and grab a slice of pizza at Marcello's. After the Pizza I met up with Justin as he got done work early. Steven decided he wanted to go so we took him back to his car and then decided to go back out. We first went to Badlands for a little bit. There were some cute guys there. It was fun. Then we decided to walk down to the Cafe. It was sort of crowded but we wanted to dance. I love dancing and they were playing some good music.
Anyway the interesting part of the evening came while we were dancing and checking out ever guy in the place. Lord -- how pathetic were we. Anyway -- first I ran into someone that I hadn't seen in a really long time. His name was Dave. We met when I first moved to SF and he took me to the Castro to show me around a little bit. He was a nice guy, but I guess we both got busy and never really talked again after that. I think we would have made good friends but oh well. Anyway -- he was at the Cafe and came up to me while Justin and I were dancing. Said hello and we chatted for a bit. It was fun. Ok -- so that isn't even the best part of the night.
We are dancing there and this guy walks up to me and says "hey are you guys a couple?" so I reply "yes." Next thing he says is "oh, are you guys interested in a 4-way" So as I pick my jaw up off the floor -- the first thing that comes out of my mouth is "SURE!" I can't believe I just said that. It was so loud in the bar that Justin couldn't hear a damn thing that was said. I told him and he laughed about it because he had just told me earlier that he thought they were also cruising for guys. It was funny. I think the guy was shocked when I said sure. He ran over to tell his b/f. So anyway the guy introduced us to his b/f. They were both cute. The next thing he leans over and says .. do you mind if I kiss your b/f because my b/f wants to kiss you. I was like .. oh ... um... and then I never said anything. Justin just looked at me .. I totally didn't know what to say. I think I was in shock. So here I am just standing there not saying anything. I don't think the guys knew what to say either. I think by me not saying anything they sort of took it as a disinterest. They danced for a while longer and then scooted off the dance floor. It was awkward because I think we had switched interests. Justin was interested in the b/f and I was more interested in the first guy. However, I could tell that it was reversed for them in that the b/f was more interested in me and the first guy in Justin. Oh well I guess it wasn't meant to be. Although it may have been fun.
After that Justin and I decided to go home and go to bed. I was sort of buzzed so after making 2 cans of Beef Stew for Justin and I, we went to bed and I passed out.
I woke up this morning at about 6:45 in desperate need of some water. I got up, had some water and then went back to sleep. Totally forgetting about my car being parked in the street cleaning side for Monday. Ugh ... needless to say I walked out to my car later to find another $30 ticket. My 2nd in 2 weeks. I'm not doing too well with this street parking. I need to remember where the hell I park.
So anyway -- I had a pretty good weekend and now I'm back to the daily grind of the work week. Oh when will it ever end.
I haven't written anything since my last entry after going out to dinner with friends. Many things have changed since then, but I just don't have the time or energy right now to explain everything. Maybe when I have time I will catch up. The most significant thing that has changed is that Justin and I decided to come to an agreement. We decided to have a relationship, but open it up. This is something new for both of us, but I think will be interesting to see how it works. It was also agreed to give each other the space that we both needed and just see how everything works out. I've never done anything like this, but it seemed ok with me, and ok with Justin. I guess only time will tell.
Anyway everything else is going great with me. The job is going well, life is good in general and I don't have any major complaints.
Ok -- well I really should get going. It's almost 8pm. I need to get home and do some laundry.
Chow!
