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Rich Brown - Living My Life Out Loud!
Hello I'm Rich Brown and this is my personal website and blog. I'm just your simple, average, down to earth, professional, out gay man and aspiring circuit boy, living in Phoenix, Arizona with a few things to say while trying to find my place among all the scary, conservative, religious nuts in this sick and twisted world.
Thursday, September 20, 2001
@ Home
I am so fucking mad right now. What I thought was going to be a pretty easy day turned out to be one of the worst days in my life working in the computer industry. I just now got home from work because some asshole decides it's fun to spread a virus around the internet. Well lets just say that I spent all afternoon trying to get my servers at work cleaned and as I left at 11 pm I still was not able to get our main development server back to normal. It was infected with not just one but 3 different viruses. If the morons that I worked with actually took some precautionary measures I wouldn't have to deal with this shit. I swear I'm going to take control of these servers so that I don't have to do this again. Go figure that my desktop was one of the only ones in the company that wasn't infected. Maybe it's because I have half a brain and went out to the Microsoft site to get the necessary patches right when they were available rather then waiting for this to happen.
I could just scream ... Aaaaaaaarrrrrrrrrrrrrgggggggggggghhhhhhhhhhhhh ...
Anyway -- I can't wait for this weekend. It has been a really taxing week for me and I need some time to just hang out and relax this weekend. Thank god I was able to work from home yesterday because in doing so I was able to get all of my laundry done which is one less thing I have to do this weekend. The less the better, that way I can just do whatever the hell I want too. Maybe one of these days I will actually be able to get everything that is just laying around my room put away. You'd really think that I just moved in with the boxes still piled up. I guess I could always just give up partying on the weekend and put it all away ... naaaa .. what fun would that be.
I'm really looking forward to maybe getting away on Saturday. I'm not sure yet. I've been thinking that I want to get out of the city for a little bit. I guess this is really dependent upon if I decided to stick around and watch the Penn State football game this weekend or not. Since I'm now an official member of the Bay Area Penn State Alumni Association, I get all these great invites to go and hang out with people and watch the game. As appealing as they all are I'd still rather be a member of the GAY PSU Alumni Association -- which of course there is none. Somehow hanging out with a bunch of straight people watching football just doesn't appeal to me anymore. Maybe I can talk Philip into going somewhere with me and watching it since he is also a football fan. I know he has his heart set on the UCLA game so I doubt there would be any convincing him to watch Penn State. Oh well -- I guess I'll see what I'm in the mood for come Saturday morning. Otherwise I may just take a ride somewhere to get away -- even if it's by myself.
I'm really not looking forward to going back into the office tomorrow. I know what is going to happen. I'm going to have to reinstall the whole damn development server again. I really don't feel like doing that but I know I just won't have any choice in the matter. No one else can do it. I sometimes think I'm the only competent person in my group. If I even get laid off from that place I'm going to in there and shoot someone. I swear I will. Ok ... well maybe not but it's an interesting thought anyway.
Alright now that I've sat down here and started to vent some of my bitter feelings I'm starting to feel better already. Writing really does appease me sometimes ... as long as what I'm writing isn't some nasty E-Mail to my boss or something because then I only feel like a dork after sending it.
The other thing that really pisses me off is that software just never works right. I don't know who the hell these companies get to test their software, but they don't have a clue either. It seems like every piece of software that I install on my system I can get to crash. I think they design this crap with all these features they think no one is really going to use anyway. So here comes me -- I'm like -- oh what a cool feature -- let's try it -- and BANG -- the application crashes -- no warning, no nothing. And best of all I of course didn't save whatever it was that I was working on for the past hour. Maybe I'm really not so smart after all. Ugh
I did have the pleasure of watching the Presidents speech tonight with about 30 of my co-workers. Can I just say ... I still think that man is a moron. He's getting better, but he really needs to learn where to break in a sentience. Give him a few more years and hopefully he'll get it right.
Oh so anyway I didn't even get a chance to write about last night. I ended up going with Steven to this Community Church in the Castro. It's a non-denominational church and is basically for everyone who wishes to attend. I have to admit that I was a bit skeptical in going for the "Prayer at the Heart" worship in the Taize tradition last night, but I knew that Steven really wanted to go so I figured what the hell I'll give it a try. Well ... it turned out to be much better then I expected. I really enjoyed spending the hour just praying to "a god" not any one in particular and singing with the other people. I'm totally not the type to go and sing, but I honestly really felt so much better when we left there. It was so very uplifting and allowed me to focus a bit on myself and pray for my family, friends and the rest of the world. It was really actually very refreshing because I've been so tired of everyone pushing this idea of Jesus down my throat lately with every other religion. Ok -- well I grew up Catholic, so I definitely think my Mother almost had a heart attack when I told her that I believed in a God, however I just didn't know about this whole Jesus thing, but that's how I really feel. I think it's great to be spiritual and believe what you want, but don't push your beliefs on me. So anyway -- the prayers and songs were pretty generic and not in the traditional Christian fashion which I found really great. Some of the songs were actually in Hebrew which I really liked. I somehow think I was Jewish in a past life or something .. I dunno ... just a thought. So after leaving there I felt really good and I was really happy to go there with Steven. I think I may have to start going with him on a regular basis. I know that he really enjoyed it too, so it could be good for us both. Now if I can only get him to sing. Well one day at a time I suppose.
Alright -- well I supposed I babbled enough for today. It's now 12:15 and I really need to grab something to munch on before I go to sleep. I have a feeling it's going to be another long day tomorrow.
