Hello I'm Rich Brown and this is my personal website and blog. I'm just your simple, average, down to earth, professional, out gay man and aspiring circuit boy, living in Phoenix, Arizona with a few things to say while trying to find my place among all the scary, conservative, religious nuts in this sick and twisted world.
Saturday, August 28, 2004
@HOME. Ok this is actually a back dated post but I wanted to insert it into the correct time frame. So tonight was completely fucked up. First of all I wasn't tired because I took a really long nap earlier in the evening. This pretty much ruined my sleep schedule and Justin had to work in the morning so he decided to go to bed around 11 or so. Well that's where all this started. I decided to stay up for a while. I started off by watching some tv and then I decided to write a little bit in my journal. As I was writing I started talking to my friend Brandon online. Brandon was up as well as was also bored because his b/f Alan was already in bed as well. He kept trying to get me to come over to his place and hang out and chat. I told him that I couldn't leave because I didn't want to make a bunch of noise and wake Justin up. So he said that he really just wanted to hang out so he would come over here. I told him he can't come over because Berg would freak out and start barking and wake Justin up. So finally I agreed to meet him outside where we could sit and talk for a little bit. Ok, so now ... I walk out the sliding glass door in the back to go around outside and all of a sudden Berg starts barking. Next thing the light comes on and Justin is up and in the kitchen. I was kind of freaked out because I didn't want to wake him up and I didn't know what to say ... "Hey I'm meeting Brandon out front ... that was sort of wierd anyway" so I just went back inside. Next thing, Justin starts to go back to the bedroom and through the dining room window he sees Brandon standing out front. So he totally freaks out, things something is going on. LOL ... so at this point things couldn't get any more awkard or worse. So I go outside and get Brandon and tell him to just come in because now Justin is up and it dosen't matter anyway. So he comes in and we sit on the couch chatting for a bit. Justin decides to go back to bed since he has to work. So Brandon and I are sitting there on the couch watching Lord of the Rings and having a few beers. Brandon moved over next to me and we were chatting some more. It was a little awkard and then Justin comes walking out and stands behind the couch. All of a sudden he's like "Can I talk to you for a second ..." so I get up and go back into the room with him and by this time he's pissed. He's upset because he thinks something is going on with Brandon and I and he's feeling left out. I explained to him that nothing was going on and no I'm not seeing Brandon (don't know where that one came from). Anyway he says he saw Brandon sitting there playing with his dick. I'm like well I didn't see it and I wasn't intending or going to let anything happen because that would be just rude having Justin in the room. So anyway after all that we come out and Brandon just decides its best for him to just go home. He didn't know what was going on and didn't want to cause any grief with Justin and I. So by this time it's like 5am and the sun is coming up. Justin has to work in the morning and I'm tired as hell, so we both just go to bed. What a strange night.
I guess the moral of all this is that I should have just told Justin I was going to go out or meet up with Brandon to hang out. I guess I just didn't want to worry him by leaving while he was sleeping. Oh well ... we'll work these kinds of things out for the future.
