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Hello I'm Rich Brown and this is my personal website and blog. I'm just your simple, average, down to earth, professional, out gay man and aspiring circuit boy, living in Phoenix, Arizona with a few things to say while trying to find my place among all the scary, conservative, religious nuts in this sick and twisted world.
 
 
 

 Wednesday, December 22, 2004

 
What Am I Afraid Of?
@HOME. I went out to lunch this afternoon with Joey and John. We had an interesting conversation regarding being a gay couple and showing public affection. I explained to them that I had a really difficult time adjusting to Justin wanting to hold hands and walk down the street. Even though we were living in San Francisco, I was still quite uncomfortable about it and it took me a long time to work through that issue. Joey asked me if we held hands here in Phoenix to which I instantly replied "Oh God No!" They both asked me why and I said that I just didn't feel comfortable with it. I said that I even move away from the window in the house if it's open and Justin tries to kiss me. Joey and John both said that they used to hold hands and walk down the street with their boyfriends. I don't know why it bothers me so much. I guess I'm always afraid of what other people will think or say. I know that's probably not a very productive behavior, but it's my life and I really don't know if I will ever get over that. Joey said that in his opinion that if people didn't like it they didn't have to look. I guess that's just the way I should think of it as well.
Chad is the same as you he don't like to do things in the public I never understood that until we had a long talk about it one day.

I understand how people can make you feel bad about something or yourself and your believes its crazy but its the world we live in.

Besides that part of Chad is cute as well so it's a big turn on to me.

Merry Christmas Rich and Justin!


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          posted by Blogger Kurt @ Thursday, December 23, 2004 8:53:00 AM  



Well it's a tough one - to hold hands or not to hold hands! I was a bit anxious about it for a few years, but living in Sydney (which is like San Francisco), I began to feel more comfortable doing it.

With Rob, I grab his hand unconsciously a lot here in Washington DC. Sometimes he pulls away, sometimes he reaches for mine. I guess I'm so enthusiastic about it and it feels so natural that if someone had a problem with it, I really think it's their problem and not mine.

It's a tough one, though. I think you should publicly display that affection for Justin ;) Do it for him, if anything - he'd be blown away if you just grabbed his hand on the bus or in town, etc!


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          posted by Blogger SeanP7 @ Monday, December 27, 2004 6:28:00 PM  



Isn't it sad that we gay men have fallen into this trap created by straight people? I understand that same fear. I try to tell myself to just grab Charles's hand anyway, but then the image of disapproving stares stops me. Most straight people will never understand this fear.

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          posted by Blogger Mark @ Friday, December 31, 2004 12:54:00 PM  





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