Hello I'm Rich Brown and this is my personal website and blog. I'm just your simple, average, down to earth, professional, out gay man and aspiring circuit boy, living in Phoenix, Arizona with a few things to say while trying to find my place among all the scary, conservative, religious nuts in this sick and twisted world.
Wednesday, August 10, 2005
Must Be One of Those Moods
@HOME. Justin and I just got back from Dinner at 'Some Burros' a local Mexican restaurant. We've been there a few times before and it was even my suggestion to go there tonight, but after the fact I realize that I didn't really feel like Mexican food afterall. It's been sort of a weird day for me. I'm in one of those moods right now, I can't really explain it. I just have a lot of thoughts racing through my mind right now. Thoughts about work, thoughts about life, thoughts about the future. I guess I'm being somewhat introspective which usually puts me in this weird, almost disconnected mood. Anyway, I don't want to get too deep into this because I don't feel like writing much about it and it's just a personal thing I have to work through.
So Queer as Folk came to an end after five years on Sunday night. I know that many in the gay community didn't like the show and felt as if it portrayed the gay community in a negative way but after living for a few years in San Francisco and spending some time in the gay party scene, I personally have a different take on it.
For me the community, the friendships, the relationships, and the drug binges portrayed on Queer as Folk were very much a part of the gay community that I knew. I know there will be many people who disagree with me on this, and I admit that the show does not accurately portray all gay people and their lives, however it it's not supposed too. It was a representation of one group of friends which certainly closely resembled the friends and life I had while I was living in San Francisco. I think the reason why many in our community can't identify with the way the gay community was portrayed in QaF was because it's an experience unique to a predominately centralized gay community and it's members in a big city.
One other thing it closely resembled was my relationship with Justin. Justin and I met just before Queer as Folk began airing. This means that we too are going on five years together. Just as Brian and Justin were 10 years apart, when Justin and I met he was 19 and I had just turned 30, also 10 years apart. We've gone through many of the same ups and downs in our relationship that Brian and Justin went through on the show. The parallels of our relationship to that of Brian and Justin have been eerily similar. I jokingly had this conversation with Justin last week ...
Queer As Folk Narrator:
"After 5 years all good things must come to an end and it's time to say goodbye ... There is only 1 episode left ... Watch to see the shocking finale ..."
Rich:
Turns to Justin and says "... So Justin, after 5 years all good things must come to an end and it's time to say goodbye. Stay tuned for our shocking finale ..."
Justin:
*frowns*
I of course was joking. This is where the parallel between our relationship and the show will end. We of course will continue on. I have to admit that I'm sad to see the show end. We tivo'd the QaF Goodbye Special and watched it last night. It made me realize that no matter how it portrayed the gay community, it was a huge step for us to have a groundbreaking show like this on the air. It touched on the issues of gay sex, gay love and gay marriage long before this was mainstream to talk about. I do know that all good things must come to an end, so after 5 years, I will say my sad goodbye to our Sunday evening ritual of watching Queer as Folk.
Alright well I'm done with my rant and I really should be getting back to my introspection ... actually I think I'm going to head to bed a little early tonight (early for me is before 2 am). Cheers for now!
That's uncanny how many similarities there are between the show and your own relationship with Justin. I'd never seen the show but I'm wishing now I had.
I know the "introspective" mood you are feeling Rich...it's part of being human. Usually I find for me, I feel that way right before something happy happens to me. Kind of like the storm before the calm?? LOL I hope you and Justin have a great weekend
ZING!
|______________________________________________________________________ posted by Jude @ Thursday, August 11, 2005 4:18:00 PM
That's uncanny how many similarities there are between the show and your own relationship with Justin. I'd never seen the show but I'm wishing now I had.
I know the "introspective" mood you are feeling Rich...it's part of being human. Usually I find for me, I feel that way right before something happy happens to me. Kind of like the storm before the calm?? LOL I hope you and Justin have a great weekend Rich ~ and be gentle with your body this time, I think it's trying to tell you something and you won't like it if you ignore it for too long....... but you can still have a hoot!! :)
|______________________________________________________________________ posted by Jude @ Thursday, August 11, 2005 4:18:00 PM
Rich, I have NO IDEA where the "Zing" came from, or why this posted twice! Sorry about that!
|______________________________________________________________________ posted by Jude @ Thursday, August 11, 2005 5:25:00 PM
