Hello I'm Rich Brown and this is my personal website and blog. I'm just your simple, average, down to earth, professional, out gay man and aspiring circuit boy, living in Phoenix, Arizona with a few things to say while trying to find my place among all the scary, conservative, religious nuts in this sick and twisted world.
Thursday, January 12, 2006
Happy & Content
Wow, I can finally start to get caught up with my reading and writing. The first two weeks back to work in the New Year are always very busy for me and I just haven't had any time at all to write, read or do much of anything socially.
So with that said, I just want to say that I'm really pretty damn happy and content right now. I really don't even know how to begin to explain it. This feeling really hit me last weekend when Justin and I were taking down all of our Christmas decorations. I was out front taking the lights off the house, it was just getting dark and yet still somewhat warm outside. I stopped for a second, looked around and smiled. Berger was sitting in the front yard watching me, and I could see Justin through the dining room window taking down the tree. I had a really warm feeling come over me as I thought ... "This is our house, this is my family, and I'm happy" I just couldn't stop smiling and I felt great. I just wanted to tell Justin how much I loved him and how happy I was, but since I'm a really a bitch at heart I of course did NOT. I thought it, so that's what really counts and he can read about it once I make this post. I know, I know you're probably thinking "wow that Rich Brown is just such a romantic guy... " I know I am and I just can't help it. :-P
So to my surprise, I've felt this way for the past week now. I feel AMAZING, I love my life, I love Justin, I love my friends, I love my pooch, I love our house, and I just love being alive ... and no I'm not on fucking Ecstasy right now! For once in my life I'm really happy, and let me tell you firsthand, that's not a feeling I've had often in the past few years. I almost always find some reason or another to stress myself out and rob myself of the simple pleasure of being truly happy, so for now I'm just going to ride this wave. I knew that things have been getting better for me in all aspects of my life over the past year and I feel like now I can finally just relax, take a deep breath and enjoy myself. If this is any indication of what the year has in store for me, it's going to be one hell of a great year. I love you all! Ok maybe not really. Cheers!
Reading this has just made me happy. I don't have nearly all that you have in your life to be happy about, but it's contagious!
|______________________________________________________________________ posted by Jeff @ Friday, January 13, 2006 9:27:00 AM
Aww now Rich that just gives me the warm fuzzies! I recognize that feeling you're talking about, and it's just awesome.
Rich...about your last post? Good lord man, I was joking!! LOL I commented on your first podcast and said I liked your voice, remember? It was hilarious listening to your Darth Vader voice on this last one, I almost spit my Dr. Pepper all over my monitor.. Anyway, I WAS JOKING! **walks away feeling all bad now**
|______________________________________________________________________ posted by Jude @ Friday, January 13, 2006 10:41:00 AM
It was good seeing you guys last night. You guys always look like you're having the best time : )
|______________________________________________________________________ posted by potusol @ Friday, January 13, 2006 4:03:00 PM
It's wonderful when things just fall into line and you're able to realize it. I'm so glad you're happy and content. And I really hope this year is the best yet for you and Justin and Berg too! :)
|______________________________________________________________________ posted by Tracey @ Sunday, January 15, 2006 7:35:00 AM
LOL. Jude I know you were joking. :-P I was joking too, I think, I mean of course I was. HA!
|______________________________________________________________________ posted by Rich Brown @ Thursday, January 19, 2006 10:03:00 AM
