Hello I'm Rich Brown and this is my personal website and blog. I'm just your simple, average, down to earth, professional, out gay man and aspiring circuit boy, living in Phoenix, Arizona with a few things to say while trying to find my place among all the scary, conservative, religious nuts in this sick and twisted world.
Friday, May 11, 2007
Self Censorship?
I've really been thinking a lot lately about what I write about in my blog, and I guess more importantly, do not. I've really considered as of late the thought of perhaps discontinuing the self-censorship I've imposed upon myself with regards to my blog.
I'm really torn on this point, and to understand why I'm torn, you would have to be privy to the things I do not write about. Let's be honest here, most people keep their blogs at a 'G' rating and choose to do so for good reason, but the reality of what goes on in people's lives is not always going to garner a 'G' rating. For some yes, I imagine it would, but for others the face the put forth is obviously only one side of their real lives. When it comes to my blog, it's about as racy as PG-13 movie, but as any of my close friends could tell you, that couldn't be farther from truth when it comes to my personal life.
I've touched on this one time before when I made a reference to the movie 'When Boy's Fly' and the Circuit Party culture. Anyone who has ever had any experience or involvement with this sub-set of gay culture is well aware of what actually goes on in this scene and how it carries forward into our personal lives. I've read bloggers who've openly written about these things things, and I've known other bloggers like myself who have not. I guess to some degree I feel as if I have some responsibility to both myself, my friends and my community to keep things private, however I'm starting to feel a strong desire to really want to just throw myself out there and write about the things I believe would completely shock most people. As you can possibly only imagine aside from the more outward aspect of the party scene, there is the behind-the-curtain aspect, where among other things, sex flows freely. I am not innocent from that standpoint, I just have made a conscious choice to not discuss.
There are some things about my life that I will never feel completely comfortable making public, that's just the way it is. I am however thinking about throwing open the door a little wider to my life and talking about the things I've not previously talked about.
I also have intentionally avoided talking about any issues in regards to my friends, my relationship with Justin and my feelings from that standpoint. Just like any other couple, Justin and I have our ups & downs, and I think it's important for me to write about some of what we're going through from time to time to both get it off my chest and help other people understand that it's not always rosy, but you can certainly work through it.
So with that said, I do think I'm going to lift some aspects of my self-censorship and start writing a little more freely. I will say as a precursor that some of what I'm going to write may be a little too much for some to handle, but alas it's my life and I feel like it's finally time to talk about it. Cheers!
I'm happy with your decision. Write about what you want to and what you feel comfortable with disclosing.
I have a pretty good idea about the whole Circuit Party thing, but I'm sure there are other things that I am clueless on.
I am interested in what you have to say and hopefully getting some of it out in the open will feel good.
Take care!
|______________________________________________________________________ posted by Jeremy Ryan @ Friday, May 11, 2007 9:47:00 PM
Rich,
I love reading your blog and looking at your pictures. It's a great website. I found out about Burn Nightclub because of you. Now about this post. You kept me hanging... When are you going to spill the beans about whatever it is you are talking about? You are keeping us in suspense!
Ryan mkinmesohi@yahoo.com
|______________________________________________________________________ posted by Anonymous @ Tuesday, May 15, 2007 3:37:00 PM
What are you talking about Rich? What really goes on at circuit parties? I have no idea what you are talking about. Do tell! :p
xo
|______________________________________________________________________ posted by SilentBob @ Thursday, May 17, 2007 12:32:00 AM
Yes I know I'm keeping you hanging. Of course what I'm talking about are the drugs and sex that are often and rightfully associated with the Circuit Parties. I will talk a little about the sex, but I'm not admiting any knowledge of drug use during the parties. ;-)
|______________________________________________________________________ posted by Rich Brown @ Thursday, May 24, 2007 2:20:00 AM
I've really been thinking a lot lately about what I write about in my blog, and I guess more importantly, do not. I've really considered as of late the thought of perhaps discontinuing the self-censorship I've imposed upon myself with regards to my blog.
