Hello I'm Rich Brown and this is my personal website and blog. I'm just your simple, average, down to earth, professional, out gay man and aspiring circuit boy, living in Phoenix, Arizona with a few things to say while trying to find my place among all the scary, conservative, religious nuts in this sick and twisted world.
Thursday, July 12, 2007
I'm Ready For More
Photo of me taken at Amsterdam on June-30-2007, my hair is finally growing back now.
I'm not really sure I can completely explain myself when I say I'm ready for more. It's really just a reoccurring feeling I've been having and a thought that's been going through my mind for the past few days.
Maybe this post would be better titled "I'm Ready For A Change" instead. I think I'm in need of a little change because it just feels like my life has gotten a bit routine and boring at the moment. Now don't confuse this with me being unhappy because that couldn't be any further from the truth. I'm very happy with my life, my relationship with Justin, my friendships, and my career, however I guess I'm just feeling a little bored right now. Just as hard as it is for me to describe, it's as equally hard for me to put my finger on exactly what it is that I'm feeling.
I partially think it comes from the fact that I continue to feel like there isn't enough time in the day. Most days I get up out of bed, head into our home office where I spend the day at my desk working until Justin comes home around 6. Most evenings we go tanning, come home and grab a bite to eat, head to the gym for a few hours, come home and then go to bed. It feels like I'm in a bit of a rut. I guess I'm not one for consistent routine and when it starts to happen I interpret it as being boring.
I'm not really sure how to even fix this. In previous years this would be the point where I would probably pack up and move to another city to shake things up a bit, and thus the reason why from 1994 to 2002 I moved to a new place on average of almost every 6 months. I do realize it's not a matter of me packing up and moving these days, I think it's just an issue that I need to modify my routine a bit. Maybe I need to get out of the house a little bit more as well. While I love working from home, it does help to change the scenery once and a while.
I really just wish that I had more time in the day where I could do some additional things like read some books, play more with Berger, spend time time outside, sit in front of the boob tube, and even spend some time on some various hobbies like photography which I've always wanted to get more into.
I am looking forward to getting out of town and heading to San Diego next weekend for San Diego pride and another weekend of parties, so that will be a slight reprieve from my boredom. I guess in the meantime I'll just have to find a way of shaking things up a little bit without really shaking things up too much to break anything if that makes sense. If only I could get the clock to stop for a few extra hours a day, that would solve everything. Alright enough of my incessant bitching, it's time to get back to my routine now so I'm off to the gym. Cheers!
It's so easy to get into a "rut" with our daily routines. Your day described sounds very full, too. Is there any way you could take an allotted amount of time each work day to get out and do something for an hour or two? Perhaps you could do things with Berger during that time, walks or car rides.
I know you'll figure something out Rich. In the meantime have a great weekend!
|______________________________________________________________________ posted by Jude @ Friday, July 13, 2007 8:58:00 AM
I heard that! Let's get tattoos.
|______________________________________________________________________ posted by Jerry Timms @ Friday, July 13, 2007 2:08:00 PM
